FOUR THINGS

"status update"

no emails
no new messages

i tried really hard to produce something worth noticing
but all i have now

are feelings of expanding violently
and becoming thinner, bubble-like

and waiting for something vast and trendy to cover me
and send me deep underground

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"vintage eating disorder"

danish nipples in the bedroom light
the 1920s in brooklyn air
seasonal changes in eating habits
strange faces on the dance floor
from some old flame gone dark

outside of town by the train tracks
i saw a scene from an old tv show
where the two villains and the two lovers
decide to get some food together
at a diner, it's 3 am,
before they fight to the death
by an old quarry
and then i think of the movie garden state
and i want to throw up

but instead we go have pizza
and drink ourselves through the weekend

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"this looks really cool"

i could write something here

everyone already uses this i think?

i could write something like "tropical vacation gone very wrong via ape incident"

or "i remember we endured a total meltdown at the office"

in the future, i plan to use this Google Document thing

to crystallize secluded, semi-private feelings spaces

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"Warner Home Video"

when it goes on there is a hiss,
a glowing ripple at the top.
"i've got a feeling we'll watch this drunk eventually," i said.
now,
at three in the morning, with something else playing in the background
i'll look at you
and look back at the screen
feel confused
and then settle into something familiar

there will be weird shades of NTSC color
like the time you told me
something i couldn't hear
and i didn't say
"wait what did you say?"